Theatre

So today I was in the sudent support office with someone called Nicky who talks to me weekly and supports me because I find school difficalt. Most of the time we don’t even talk about school, we just talk about how things are going generally, which is good and really helps me. Anyway, we were in the middle of talking and her phone rang. The ring tone was that song I’ve just dedicated the last 3/4 days looking for. So yes, I found it. It’s called Clown Koala by Ed Cox. You can download/listen to it on myspace. Just type “Ed Cox” into google .

I think the friend problems I’ve been having are nearly sorted. Although I’ve distanced myself from a lot of my regular group for the last couple of days just because I feel so let down and board with it all. I don’t mind though. I’ve forced myself to start talking to new people and I’ve made some really great new friends who are all lovely. I think I might be spending more time with them now that I’ve found I can make new friends when I need too.

I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned this before, but when I leave school I want to work in “Arts Management” which is like backstage in a Theatre. My altime dream is to work backstage in the West End. Anyway, I was looking at University courses the other day and I found one called “Arts Management” which sounded amazing! I was looking at what qualifications you need to get there and it didn’t say much, just an intrest. So I thought I’d email a local Theatre and ask if they’d take on a volenter. Hopefully I get an email back soon..?

College?

It feels like I haven’t posted for ages, and it’s only been about, what? 5 days?

Anyway, quite a lot has happened. Firstly, the friend issues I’ve been having are slowly getting better which is good…but, yeah I’ve been let down.

School has been getting more and more stressful by the second. I should probably be doing my geography coursework right now. Also, everyones started going on about how we should be deciding what 6th form we want to go to (6th form is basically college). I have…5 options? I don’t know, I’m going to a thing on Wednesday that should help me decide. Also, because I’ve pretty much decided what I want I want when I leave school, so I’m guess I’m lucky because I’ll go to a college that offers the course’s I need to get there.

Also, a close friend is moving to Australia at the end of the week. Obvioisly, that’s the other side of the world for me so it’s a big deal. So, I’m spending every second I can on the phone to her.

Take care everyone!

Song Search

Guys, I heard a song today and I really like it. The only thing is, I don’t think it has lyrics (maybe it does, I don’t know) and I don’t know the title or anything. Pleasee help me find it!

The song was kind of a dance song. Kind of electro. I THINK the title of the song was like cloud koaula/clown koaula or something? Please let me know if you know it!

Friend Problem #2?

I’m getting more and more sick of my friends by the day.

Today was a pretty crappy day. You know I posted a blog “friend problems” a few days ago? You know that girl I called “Amy” who I was standing up for, standing up for her against some other friends who I’ve known a lot longer? Turns out she’s just as bad as the rest of them.

So today, I walk into school and everything’s fine. Then a friend, Laura (name changed) walks past me and goes “I’m really disapointed in you”. I’m like, “wtf?” but don’t think much of it, thinking I’ll talk to her later and ask her why she’s “disapointed” in me.

Then my friend Kim (name changed again) comes along and says “Amy’s really annoyed at you, she won’t tell me why”. Okay, so that’s two friends I’ve annoyed already and I haven’t even walked through the tutor door.

Turns out Amy’s been spreading stuff about me, behind me back. I’m not totally sure what yet but…argg. I’m so sick of being betrayed by my friends. The only person I feel I can trust with anything is myself at the moment. I’m so sick of people lying, bitching, all of that. I’m sick of the arguments. We all used to get on so well in years 7, 8, 9. I was thinking about all of it and it hit me.

I get on so well with Amy, but I’m not going to lie, she’s a stirer. She’s two faced, and she’s in with a bad croud. Could she be the reason for all my friend problems?

I’m so confused. I’m so tired of stupid arguments recking my weekends. My friends seem to want me to disapear. I’m not perfect, but I wish they’d realise I’m not going to fade as soon as they get sick of me.

God, I need a confidence boost.

The Roles of Women

Every week, we have a class about, like, personal things. Like sex, drugs, relationships, you know the sort. Anyway, today we had a class about “the roles of women”. We were talking about how women used to be treated and how they are treated now.

Basically, somebody brought up the fact that in proffesinal art gallerys (the tate, that sort of thing), the artists tend to be men, and the models are normally nude women. I don’t go to many art gallerys, so I’m not totally sure if that’s true now, but it definatly used to be true.

Some guy in our class (he’s the sort of person who thinks he’s better than anyone else. I’m not joking, if you met him you’d know what I mean). Anyway, he cropped up and started saying “well, women should be too busy doing stuff around the house to do art anyway, so who cares”.

I’m sorry? Some of my best friends (girls) are fantastic artists and I would hate to think they would waist there talent and spend there lives “doing things around the house”. I don’t know about you, but I think that that attitude toward woman is awful, people say the rights of women have got better. They have, but there’s still all these sexiest jokes (and people) and stuff.

What do you think?

Coursework Much?

Hey guys,

I hope you all don’t mind that I haven’t been posting as much as normal. I can’t belive how busy I’ve been recently. Today, I spent my whole lunch hour doing coursework, then I stayed after school and did more coursework, then I went out with some friends. Tomorow doing coursework again at lunch, going over a friends after school, then we’ll catch the bus into town and go to a concert that my friends organising, then she’s staying over mine. Friday night I’m free so I hope to do some work on Coisa, and I’ll probably post here.

I’ve emailed my host and asked her to do some things that I can’t do because she’s got cPanel and I obviosuly haven’t because Coisa’s only a subdomain. Hopefully she can get that done soon so I can start working on the site in general. I’ll let you know on Friday.

Hope you’re all good, and please keep emailing and commneting, I always reply!

Busy Life

Sorry I haven’t been online during the last few days. On Thursday evening I left for London to go to my Uncles wedding and I didn’t get Internet in the hotel which was annoying. I had a really good time though, although I’m not a huge family weddings. I swear if another person says “oo you’ve grown so much” I’m going to scream.

Unfortunately, I haven’t done anything to Coisa because I haven’t been here. I’m so sorry, I think this is going to take a longer time than I first expected. Next weekend, I am planning to put aside some time to sort some things out so hopefully that will be a improvement, even though I don’t know when because I’m going back down to London next weekend so see a friend who’s moving to Australia. I have such a busy life!

Coursework and friend problems are also taking up a lot of my life at the moment, and they have to come before my site, I’m sorry.

Also, I’m going to have a SERIOUS affiliate clear out. All those who don’t comment regularly will be deleted because I can’t keep up with you all, I’m sorry.

Friend Problems

So, I know I’ve already blogged today but, hey, I want to blog again .

Today, I had an…interesting day. I mean, friend-wise. Basically, I’ve always been in one “group” at school but recently one girl in the group (erm, let’s call her “Roxanne” (that’s not her real name)) has been partially nasty to another girl in the group (let’s call her “Amy”, again, that’s not her real name). Before all this happened I had just become close to Amy and she’s the sort of person I’ve really clicked with. Although I’ve known Roxanne for a lot longer, I feel I get on better with Amy.

Okay so Roxanne starts to “not like” Amy and Amy starts to drift away from the group. I really like Amy so I decide to go with her. So, I make a lot of new friends and me and Amy start to make a new “group” away from the old one.

I didn’t realise this ’till today, but some of the people in the group didn’t realise what was going on. Roxanne is clever, she knows how to do things subtly, she always makes sure she’s not caught so no one can blame stuff on her. My best friend (let’s call her “Jenny”) found out today because me and Amy started talking about it in front of her, thinking she knew. She was really shocked! So, today, me, Amy and Jenny (and some more friends who weren’t in the other group) sat together and the other group were being really bitch and shouting stuff at us.

Then, me and my Jenny went off by ourselves. The reason was we wanted to talk about our friend…she died about a year ago now. Every now and again we talk about it together because I don’t know about her, but it helps me get through. Suddenly, a girl from the other group turns up and says “Everybody wants to know why you too are going off and what you’re talking about”. I’m sorry, is it any of your bisness? In the end Jenny just said “Look, we’re talking about [name here]. Okay?” She just looked arquard and walked away.

Girl groups are so weird. I wish they’d be a bit more simple.

Welcome!

Hey guys,

Well I’ve decided to open a small wordpress blog just so I can keep in contact with you guys whilst I’m away from my regular site. So, please treat this as you did my own blog; comment, email, whatever. I want to hear from you guys!

So yeah, speak to you guys soon!

(Affies, you’ll be linked here ’till my site re-opens, not at my regular site, hope that’s okay!)